Why I Love dead mau five

Chances are if you know me you know what I'm associated with. A Canadian troll that goes by the name of Joel Zimmerman and makes Electronic Dance Music. To be honest, saying I like Joel just for his music wouldn't be completely the truth. There's so much more to it that the amazing songs he crafts.

Telling my deadmau5 stories is beginning to annoy me so I'll summarize it really briefly. Was entering my first interests into the world of EDM, was going to Ultra Music Festival, started listening to early deadmau5, deadmau5 blew my mind.

At first it started out with me genuinely falling in love with his music. But the further and further I delved into Joel's life the more and more I liked the man behind the mau5. First of all, Joel is NOT like the other superstars out right now. I went to Guetta's wall today, complete advertising. Went to Tiesto's wall, 2-D (No offense to Pierre or Tijs, I love you guys as well). I go to deadmau5's wall and it's the exact opposite. He's in control and he's acting like....when...a normal human being. Which brings me to point numero uno of why I love Joel. His fame has not gone to his head. You see him making jokes, taking pics, getting on ustream like there's no big deal. There's no sense of "I'm a big EDM producer and need to be treated as such". He fell into success, it was a shock, but it didn't change him. I mean, come on, what EDM producer on Facebook that has one million+ likes is that chill? (Shut up, I'm saving Skrillex for a future blog post)

#2: Eh doesn't afraid of anything. SERIOUSLY. He is a pretty cool guy. When I saw him at Ultra he was dancing, shaking his ass, and trolling the crowd. His personality is simply awesome. Most people when affected by stardom lose who they are. Joel didn't. He's a gamer, a techy, and a humongous troll. Just listen to his super, deep, intelligent remix of Friday: http://soundcloud.com/fuckmylife/friday-deadmau5-remix. He's made songs about what he likes (i.e. vidya games n memes n stuff). What other producers do that?

#3: He's proof. He is proof that one can accomplish your dreams. That's possibly what makes him my favorite producer, hero, and inspiration. He's proof that it's possible. I mean, look at where he came from. A skinny kid from Canada that started out with almost no fans and now he's a forerunner in the Electronic music world. People say some dreams you can't reach. Or "do you know how many people don't make it?". Joel did. Joel stuck with what he loved and now his music has reached every continent. It kind of ties in with 2. Everyone starts out small. No one knows their name, they get practically no recognition. But they worked hard and after a great deal of labor, here they are. Simply put, Joel just makes me believe that anyone can do it because honestly hey, he did it. And he was anyone just like you and me.

There's SOOOO many other details of why Joel is currently my favorite artist, hero, and inspiration but the majority falls into those 3 reasons. He's directly responsible for my dreams and my dream of one day getting signed to mau5trap, his label. But until that day I will be part of his legions of fans that he doesn't even know exists and a constant fanboy.

I'm Scared

Yeah, I'm scared. It's the first time in a long while that I've been. Normally I don't let anything affect me or show my feelings but the most dominant one at that is fear. Pure fear.

Now, of course, you may be sitting on your cushy chair in the air conditioning with a frosty summer bevarage wondering "Why is Dizzy scared?". Well...Dizzy is scared because of how close he is to claiming a major part of his dream.

You asked me what I wanted to be when I was 8: President.

You asked me what I wanted to be when I was 10: President or Lawyer

You asked me what I wanted to be when I was 13: Lawyer or Writer

You asked me what I wanted to be when I was 14: Lawyer, Writer, or Software Engineer.

You asked me what I wanted to be when I was 16: Producer/DJ.

To quote a catchy and rhthmatic House song, "What the f*ck happened?"

Starting my Freshman year of High School I liked music. It was a casual thing to do, listen to music, study. I had a few token artists and genres as favorites. Mainly Hip Hop, Japanese, and Metal. But one day, on a fateful internet encounter (See the DJ Rant for full details), I discovered and fell in love with Deep House music. Before said encounter I knew of Electronic music's existence but I was never really BIG on it. Sure, I had heard of Trance but I never invested much time to it or really knew anything about it except from playing Dance Dance Revolution games. After my eyes were opened to the Electronic spectrum they came into focus of EDM (Electronic Dance Music). It started with Deep House, which escalated to House, which came to Drum and Bass, which fell to Trance, which then gave way to Dubstep. Pretty soon the Hip Hop kid became the kid who liked Outkast, Dethklok, and Snoop Dogg became the kid who liked deadmau5, Nero, and Flying Lotus.

For me, on the word of a friend, I had wanted to become a DJ ealier in my life. It was a dream. But I never got much from it. It could be just that, a hobby. I didn't just wake up one day and say "HEY! I want to be a Producer and DJ!". No, it was a long process mostly stemming from a life-changing event in my life: going to Ultra Music Festival.

A few months ago I wrestled with my own existance in this world. That existance was in a constant struggle between being there for friends or being kind. One that I thought I could settle with was making a girl who was a prominent figure in my life happy. Be there for her, love her, and receive her love in return. However, that purpose was broken since I can only see and depend on things from this angle. So, for a while I was in a turmoil with myself. What is my existance? What is my purpose? So, in a sense of needing to be ALIVE ("If you don't have a purpose then it's the same as being dead) I grasped onto one. And that purpose was music.

Music became the most important thing in my life. Listening to BANGING tracks, pracising my crossfading and mashing, and making music started to produce such a rush. It made me happy. But up until a while ago, fear set itself in.

Next year I am going to get the oppurtunity of a LIFETIME. A gamechanger. The proudest moment in all of my 17 years on this planet. And to see something like that realized...it scares the sh*t out of me. To be able to do all that I've DREAMED of...all that I think about...and the vulnerability of having the RISK of it not being accomplished...it scares me.

So, I sit on the eve of the greatest feat of my life expectance...happy...and scared beyond belief. Whatever happens, in August something either very depressing or magical will happen. And regardless I...will...scared...