Everyone Has A Dark Side

The world's a messed up f*cked up place. There, I said it. Big shocker, I know. And every day we see darkness to light in a 5:1 ratio. But one thing I have noticed just from this past year: Everyone has a dark side. And as you all most likely know again, we rarely see that side of people. You may not see it now, but trust me, when certain conditions are met you'll see it and all it's fire-breathing glory.

Now, you may be asking yourself dear reader, just how does one find this dark side? Well it can be a number of things. It can be the straight A student getting a C on a test. It can be a boy asking out a girl he like's only for him to be rejected...for the 5th time. It can even be as simple as your parents not letting you go to the movies with friends. That dark side is always there, just waiting to be let out. However, in every day life we see a small glimmer of that dark side. How you ask? We see it when a student mouths off to a teacher. We see it when someone acts sarcastic to their boss. Now I'm not saying every little sentence has a dark side to it, all I'm saying is we show it in our every day lives. And some of us don't show it and don't really LIKE to show it. Me, I don't like showing it at all. I've become so adept at hiding and bottling up my emotions (yes, that may not be so good for me) that I can hide that dark side until I can be alone. I don't like people seeing me sad, and I certainly don't like people seeing Dizzy's bad side.

I've had down periods, I will say that without trying to hide anything. At times I've lost hope, been to the edge of mental collapse and back, and have even had my hopes dashed before they've even had a chance to rise. And yes, it is good to let it out but with me...I don't like doing it. At all. I don't want people to worry about me and I do not like talking about me if there's an issue. So if someone asks me if I'm okay, the answer will most certainly be yes, even when I'm not. I just don't like my emotions showing. And to tell you the truth, I only show certain emotions to the people I'm closest too. Call me a fool for doing it, but when you've done something for so long...it becomes a habit. And for me, it just works.

Now back to the dark side (no Star Wars pun intended). I've seen many people and until recently (this past year) I saw that everyone has a dark side. I will not divulge how I saw it because the party may be reading this post right now, but I saw it. In all of it's horrible, mean, unrelenting, nasty glory. I saw it and it made me question if everyone I saw was really how they acted. What if that nice kid sitting behind you, the one that's kind to everyone...wasn't so kind? And once again, again, this may already be knowledge to you but dang it, I'm going to tell it.

And further evidence, you think it would cease there, with that one person. No, sadly it didn't. I'm not going to mention any names, but I saw it once more. And this time, it was more direct. Once more, the theory became fact, further proving that everyone has a dark side to them. It just makes you wonder if all the people you know are acting real or fake. Are they putting on a mask today right now? Are they being up front with you right now? Or are they just fronting?

This post wasn't meant to call anyone out, just to get you to wonder. No one's wrong for having a dark side to them, in fact it makes us who we are. It's how we show that side and what we do when we show it that defines who we are. That's all I wanted to say. I just felt the sudden urge to vent. Till next time faithful readers. This has been Dizzy, OUT!