Dizzy is apparently Emo and Dizzy is Heartbroken

Alright, let me just say, the majority of teenagers are going through personal demons (as I've said in the previous blog post). And these demons wouldn't have most likely have existed years ago (also said). But a rising trend I'm starting to see is teens calling other teens emo. The word typically describes an emotionally unstable or fake person that uses emotions just to get attention. That word has run rampant in teen society. There's even a group on Facebook named, and I have subbed my name, "DIZZY!!!!!!! Stop being emo. Come back to EARTH!!!!!!!"...yeah. Yes, whoever it is really did it. Let me say that I have been going through some stuff, some really horrible god awful stuff. And let me also state that how you handle your life is your business, not the world's. So if your "friends" wanted to help you, they'd HELP you by talking to you and not making Facebook groups about you being emo.

These days when someone acts sad, boom, labeled as emo...what...the...*#$^? So whenever you're sad you're emo? Wouldn't that make all of America emo at one point? It's ridiculous. Just because someone's sad when your not doesn't mean you can smack on a label and be done with them. It's just not right. People deal with depression multiple ways. Some just step into it and are done, but some are not as unfortunate. With some it seems, the depression lingers. It stays there and doesn't go away for an unpredictable amount of time. And during that dark period, everything seems pointless. And also, that depression comes unexpected. You could be at a party having fun when something happens and makes you depressed. Once again, you don't label someone just for being depressed, it's ignorant and uncaring towards that person's feelings. When a person is in that state, everything in their mind becomes skewed. They think that they don't have any friends that care about them, and that their life will lead to despair. Reminding them that they do have good friends helps, tremendously. The worse thing you can do to someone that's down in the dumps is try helping them, then getting discouraged and leave them to dry. It's happened to me before. I'm depressed, friends come to help, I push them away, friends leave. Don't leave! If anything you're making it worse! You have to stick in there and show them that you care.

Another topic in this blog post, I have recently gotten my heart broken by a girl. Now you may sit there on your comfy chair and think to yourself: Big whup. But, it's always different when you aren't experiencing it. It hurts. Badly. You cry. A lot. And it sucks. This girl, I really liked her. I would have done anything for her. I wrote poetry about her, I prayed to God about her, I sincerely and truly liked her. However, she popped that bubble. I was made aware of it through a friend. Then that friend told me not to talk to her on Facebook about it, but I couldn't wait. I talked to her and I won't get into names or details, but things...ended. Before they could even begin. It helped that I was listening to Japanese metal while talking to her. She said that I shouldn't be talking to her via about this via Facebook but...I didn't want her to see me cry in real life. It broke me. This was the first time that I told a girl that I liked her only to be rejected. I cried a few tears but as I later found out, from me not crying and holding back my tears, that wasn't all that I had. Only till I got in the car the day after, I let out an ear piercing scream and burst into tears. These were the real tears, these were followed by yelling, sobbing, and bawling. I called my best friend and just let it all out. I hadn't done that in maybe three years. It all just came out, all of it. I wanted the best for her, I still do. And you know how there's always that part of you that thinks, "Oh! Maybe if I do this she'll like me!"? That part was there, and I just had to keep ignoring it and ignoring it.

I don't think girls know just how badly they wound certain guys. Good guys, one's that really care for a girl are easier to break for some reason. Don't know why, don't know how, but it is. If that happened to a normal guy, he'd most likely be like, "On to the next one!" and be done with it. Who knows. I've surrounded myself with good friends and the heartbreak seems to be fading away, slowly. I really don't see myself getting a girlfriend any time soon though. I've never had a girlfriend and have only really liked about three. My view is me not dating till college, which is kind of...scary. *shudder* But anyway, this has been another blog post by that kooky zany kid known as Dizzy. Till next time my brothers and sisters, this is Dizzy, OUT!